The above picture is of me when I was 16. Not only does it serve as a hilarious reminder of my emo pics on myspace, but it makes me remember how my life was when I was that young and idealistic.
Which is the perfect transition into what I'm writing about today. Aaron Isaacs asked me if I felt the same way that I did when I was 16-17 now that I am 19.
My knee-jerk reaction was "no." But then I started wondering: why not? I mean, so much of my life is still the same as it was back then. I still have the same dog, I have the same style of hair, I still live at home, and I still look like I'm in high school (some people say I look 12 years old actually. Makes me feel pretty and young). I mean, what's to say that this new outlook on life wasn't imposed on me by society? We are taught that when you are 18 you become an adult and when you become an adult you are supposed to be a mature. Isn't that just a self-fulfilling prophecy?
Well, maybe for some people. I never TRY to feel older. I still laugh at immature shit and joke around way too much with friends. But over the past year I became so more emotionally stable and intelligent. Before I was insecure, needy, volatile, and just a dick to some of my friends.
This all caught up to me at the end of my last year of high school. After realizing what a gigantic low my senior year had been. I treated people like garbage because I felt like shit because I was fat because I kept eating because I was depressed etc. After my graduation I resolved to treat people better, stop being so emotionally unstable and insecure, and man the fuck up. And I did.
Right now I am the happiest I have ever been. I love myself, my friends, and my life. I do not resent people and treat them badly, I am not short with people, and am obviously more humble since I just wrote a blog entry all about myself.
